Regarding Suicidemouse.avi
Below are the journal entries of my friend, Ashley. Her mom called me and told me to check on her, saying that I was probably the only person that could help my friend. I wish I had gone sooner. I had thought her mom was just in hysterics, but there was something terribly wrong going on with my friend. What I am about to tell you may disturb you, but it must be said. I fear for the life of anyone else who, like my friend, is obsessed with creepy internet phenomenon and works tirelessly to find out the truth.
Day 1
I feel I am close to cracking the case of suicidemouse.avi. My source agreed to send me the genuine video by e-mail. When asked if he had watched the video himself, he said he hadn't and never would.
Day 2
I can't believe that all the research into finding the real video payed off. I don't know if I could share this with anyone though; the nature of this video has disturbed me on some psychological and emotional level. I don't know how anyone else would react to it. I'm not even sure I'd want to watch it again myself for that matter. My cat, Mollie was there with me...She woke up and hissed when I watched the video. The screaming probably just hurt her ears.
I can never unsee the last 30 seconds of the video....Cutting his own head off like that with that smile on his face.... and then his body falling apart, piece by peice. The head lay on the ground still smiling.
Day 3
Another lonely, boring day at home. With no money to go anywhere or do anything I'm just stuck here. I'll have to find something to do to take my mind off that video. Mollie has been acting strange today. She spends more than usual sleeping and whines when I walk away from her. She's normally so full of energy, whats gotten into her?
Day 4
Couldn't sleep last night at all and I'm exhausted beyond the telling of it. I couldn't get that psychotic smile out of my mind. The mere thought of him walking along in that jerky fashion with that murderous smirk would be enough, but to actually see it...and the screams....I'm trying to peice together how the sound and visuals from the video are related. They just don't seem to go together. Why does she scream?
I'm not sure why I feel this way all of a sudden. I felt fine the night before....
Day 5
Got a little sleep last night, but still tired. I will try to get some rest today, but I'm afraid of what might be behind me at any given time, I feel like I'm being watched. I'm afraid to fall asleep although it's the thing I most desire. I wish I could reach out to a friend or mom and dad, but they'd never believe me. They'd just laugh. The effects of images and sounds on the human mind has always interested me, but to anyone else, they'd just say, "it's only a video", or, "It's only a picture". I went ahead and deleted that video from my laptop. I can't take the risk that anyone will find it. I just want to forget about it.
Whats worse is that I can't find Mollie anywhere.
Day 6
Mom called. I think she sensed the fear and exhaustion in my voice. She tried to get me to tell her what was wrong, but of course I can't. Last night I kept waking up, but everytime I'd see "him" standing over me with that crazed smile. Sometimes with a knife in hand, pointing to it and nodding as if telling me I was next. I can't tell whats real anymore. I need to do something to relax myself. I need to force myself to do something, anything.
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I picked up the apartment key from her mom and went over. The door was locked and there was no sign of forced entry or break in. I heard the sound of running water and figured my friend must be in the shower. I called to her, but there was no answer. I figured she couldn't hear me over the running water. I knocked on the door loudly and repeated myself, still nothing. I did this several more times, but there was still no answer. Fearing the worst I opened the door and pulled back the shower curtain.
The police arrived very quickly after I made that 911 call. My friend had bled out from severe lacerations all over the body, probably caused by a knife or razor. The police are calling it a suicide, but I know my friend would never kill herself. She wasn't a happy out-going girl. She was a very depressed, very eccentric woman, but I know for certain she would never kill herself. I read her journal entries above, and did my own research on the suicide mouse thing. I'd strongly advise anyone reading this to never, under any circumstances look for the video that my friend saw. I do feel that my friend is in a better place and is finally free of whatever she was afraid of.
... I could have sworn I saw her cat give me an earie smile when I left the apartment. Put perhaps it's just my imagination considering the circumstances?